is it really unfair?

yesterday, i was able to spend some time with my friend. her boyfriend and her just had 3 years and a month. she was abit depressed for some reasons that i cant tell anyone else. well, we had fun talking about things. later, when we were able to talk. it was a bit sad. she told me that maybe she was blinded with emotions, being depressed, she doesnt feel him caring for her. and she still loves him inspite of that but she feels that she's just fooling herself. i mean, maybe she was just tired. but in love, do we have the right to be tired? a time out? is there such a thing? how i wish i could have helped her. but she told me she was thankful that she was able to let it all out. uhmmm. then, something got me. we were sharing thoughts about some points of life. and what we both found out was that maybe life is unfair. love is unfair. but later, i asked myself? why is it unfair? we did have our choices, and that was our decision to be in such place. even if how much we express our love to someone, we shouldn't expect that they are going to treat us that way. we are all different. some people give up easily, others pursue on their goals, while some would hide themselves inside them which usually turns out to be too late..

what really annoys me about myself is that, i sometimes say to myself "if only i didn't", but what i usually say is that "if only id did, then maybe"..

*breathes hard*

she taught me something that i always turned down. that i do have friends. that talking does help soothen our feelings. but i do hope they get back soon.. it would be a sad ending for the both of them to break up because they werent able to talk things out and we holding back..

although things maybe unfair, we have to make sacrifices, butwe dont have to force ourselves. each of us has a limit. but only we can decide where the limits are. patience is a virtue, but if patience will ran out, where will we find it? is it just there where we left it? hidden? or is it does it falter like everything else? how soon will it come back? i've got lots of questions, but i dont want to think of them as final exams(which i flunked), maybe the answers would just come after us. and maybe, it's just teaaching us something we have to learn..


zhoinks!!