Monday, January 30, 2006

almost valentines day

love season....

it sucks.. i dont have someone to hold my hand to. all i hear are i love you's from people that i really dont know and people tellin me that they missed me even if they dont. i wish things go back to the dreams that i was having long before.. i miss that old feelin.. but wasnt i stupid? while i tried to break the trance that i was into because missed loneliness, but now that its here, it really sucks!!

i wonder what it would feel like..


*sniffs*


i just cant go into a relationship without finding out what i really want.. so stupid.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

sh*t

i am so sorry..

sorry....

really.. i mean this.......

i feel so bad..

sh*t

i am so sorry..

sorry....

really.. i mean this.......

i feel so bad..

sh*t

i am so sorry..

sorry....

really.. i mean this.......

i feel so bad..

Monday, January 23, 2006

and its like this

i made my mistake..
its been a while..

here's an update...

christmas was sad,

new year ws boring.. and had my first bottle of red wine.,

classes started at jan2.

had to do lots of write-up,

had my first 2 sticks of cigarettes and my first super long night out on sinulog..

now i feel sick.. i miss touching my nose with somebody else's nose.. i miss bgein hugged..
i miss huggin.. i miss saying i love you and hearing that phrase from someone who really does love me..

it sucks..

Thursday, January 05, 2006

and this is gonna be for real...

never been worse.

im so scared.......